TGIF!

HOLLA! :) It's 4:46am now! Wanna blog now because if I don't tomorrow's post will be a long one ~.~ okok. Went school today, ate lunch with wj and junguang. Set C again! This time I finished all. :D the hotdog though, gave it to wj waha. Went class again then met Sam after school. Waited for wj to end then we went.. yeap.... pp again. Dropped by wj's house first for him to eat dinner. Saw his younger brother. So damn pampered! I wouldn't let my child be like this. NO MAID BRO, NO. :D

Went to Roxy Square to eat my dinner... Mee hoon kuey. :) then met Luke and Jolene... then went home..... sorry I'm so sleepy lol AND THE FUCKING DRILLING ON TOP OF MY HOUSE START ITS ENGINE AT 8+ wts man drill and drill the floor. You know I step in my toilet, I can feel the vibration from the drilling? -______-

Anyway went to my tumblr and saw some pretty nice pix of quotes and right now, since I have no facebook so I'm gonna post here! :) here goes the spam...

Thoughts were going through my mind when I saw every one of them. But it will be a lil' crazy to post what I thought for all these 23 photos -_- so yeap. K I'M HUNGRYYYYYY gonna head to bed before I..... go on coma mode.

Anyway I HAVE NO CLASS OH YEAH OH YEAH HEHE. Love it. Gonna watch The Amazing Spiderman with the Luke and all! Bye~ :D

Diu~

Holla. Just ended a game of dota2 with wj and luke and guess what? LUKE IS A FUCKING JOKE LOL OMGGGGGGG I CAN'T EVEN. I don't even know what he is doing in that game I wanna like... scold him and shout "EH WAKE UP CAN A NOT?" He very funny sia is he ask me play in the end he give me this joke... ya la lose lose. -_-

Previously was playing blackshot.. zzzzzz~
OK anyway..... I'm friggin' tired. Went to pp today to meet my daddies and saw jean and yvonne awww i miss jean :) haha. Idk what to say but yeap I'm blogging............

Coming back home these days feeling damn sian.. the thought of being home is just.. not good. Like when you're outside you have your friends, to not make you think so much of what makes you upset. But the moment when you stepped into the bus alone. Wa the feeling really just come.. haha. Like being lonely. Like your heart is just not its usual self.. like very worried and panicking for something. Bleh~

I am like so sick of talking about you. But I just can't help but to keep asking why. Asking to myself. Was feeling so damn down yesterday.. tearing helplessly but thankfully wj was there to cheer me up hahaha tytyty. Feel so pathetic because I can't even.. cry anymore. I want to, I really want. But I just can't. I just have to turn to drinking, making myself drunk to don't know what I'm doing and just cry. And then the next day, I will be the same me again. I just need something... I wanna leave the country. I wanna go somewhere that no one knows and will judge me.

K I SHALL STOP IN CASE IDK WHEN I END. K BYE. <3 here is an old pic of me:

was waiting for michieteng to come over my house to sleep.. VERY VERY LONG AGO. Ok bye

SHORTS WRU????

HIIIII. I woke up, went into the toilet prepared to shower, and guess what? Heni sms to say class at 1 HAHAHA OMGGGGG so I'm up earlier gonna slack around and head school soon. OK anyway I CAN'T FIND MY SHORTS :'(((((( SHORTS WHERE DID YOU RUN TO??? I WANNA WEAR YOU SO BADLYYYYYY :(((((

Anyway I was looking through Jason Chen's cover and came across this song:

K speaks it all. BYE off to school~

No seriously.

KK CAN. Got damn heart pain when I saw your pic appear on my news feed. NO THAT'S NOT THE WORST PART. Worst: TAGGED WITH GIRL. HAHAHAHAHA I'm a fucking joke I swear you can just try harder to make my feelings die out for you I'M SERIOUSLY NOT INTERESTED IN YOUR GAMES. Ok. I seriously. Wish like I will bump into you on the fucking street, to see how I will react when I see you. Maybe slap you in the face, or maybe just go away.

I fucking wish you will be like the MV you put on your fb that Yoga Lin even married his girlfriend even though he thinks she's suffering. NAHHHHH YOU WON'T WHAT AM I THINKING. I'm sick of the shit hao bu hao just GET A LIFE AND GROW UP. I'm not a toy. YOU GOTTA STOP PISSING ME OFF. And you'll be like thinking: I didn't even asked you to see. Ya la ya la you din't ask me but you know I do what fucking asshole. Fb is full of shit I feel like deactivating it.

Just get together with the girl la ok?
STILL THAT FUCKING COWARD SINCE THE PAST.
I was fucking blind, so fucking blind.
I don't fucking deserve this shit.

FB ACC: DEACTIVATED.

School Day 1.

Hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi i hi hi hi hih i ih. :D

School starts today~ and everything's good~ :D Was in the bus today and saw this guy that looks like The Dictator, the head got chopped off guy HAHAHAHAHA #movieredrawalsymptoms. Had breakfast/lunch with wj, sameo and wj's friend, junguang. First time eating at engine school hahahahaha Set C was what wj order. HE SAID IT WAS JUST FILLING. JUST filling OK. In the end. I didn't even finish the toast, the scrambled egg, the hot dog. -_- Ok then I just kept bull-shitting around. :(((( they say I too noisy :(((((

Walked me to South Wing for class wa super sweet no la hahahaha is I pull them go with me ^_^ ok then went in class. Same class with Heni wahahahahaha. :) Ok class ended at 2, went back design canteen to buy MILO BENG! Slacked then went to 2Dart class. Was the same class as 3Dart hahaha. GUESS WHAT. ONLY 2 OF US IN THE CLASS YESAHHHHH. LOLOL. Damn slack please and we finished our first exercise in class today #sodamnproud

Met wj after school, got craving for katong laksa wahahahah. Called sameo who is sleeping at home and annoying him to come out to meet us.. "Daddy come out leh daddy please please please I miss you already daddy can you come out and meet us? Daddy pleaseeeeeeee" Hehehehehe :D Went to wj's house first for him to eat his dinner and then we went to meet sam. Took bus to katong, ate the laksa omg shiok :D then went over to I12... walk around... went the sky garden... got my skirt + legs + shoes wet. KKCAN YOU ALL.... Went to find Jolene who was working :D:D:D

Went out to slack.. went home....... and now here... I'm damn tired.. Kept annoying the both of them until I don't feel like talking. Need to recharge my energy... so I can be super noisy tomorrow. ~.~ K gonna d2 now early gdnight lovelies. <3 OH AND I'M GOING TO BIGBANG'S CONCERT OOOHLALALALALA.

Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much, to the extent of saying "I'm used to it."?
Haha, life.

DICTATOR!

Hello! :) IT'S AFTER 12. SO IT'S TECHNICALLY MONDAY. AND YES! SCHOOL STARTS IN 12 HOURS. :'((((( 12-6 everyday. Thankfully it's not 9 woohoo. Having class with MOI. Hope everything be good! :) And also can lepak in school with wj and sameo TOO BAD LUKEEEEE

Ok so on Saturday I met Weijie and Sameo at Gong Cha at Singpost level 2. Fml ok I didn't know singpost got gong cha... #superduperfail got a free drink though! Sameo's cousin is working and helped us made hehehe sweeeee. Next time want drink need find Sameo go with me hahahahha :p

Then we went outside mac to sit down. Bought our food and Luke&Jolene came~ I only told Junlin that one friend coming hhahahaha in the end all reach earlier than he did. Ok so Junlin came~ ate and all. Kept talking to Sameo and friends about overseas trip, thinking further and further hahahahaha #notrealisticanymore and they were like,"September come then say la k" :p

So Junlin went off to meet his other friends. Left us deciding what to do. So here is the plan: Watch movie, then play pool/play lan. What happened: All of us bus down to Luke's house to see him act cute to his mum to get money lol. Then bus back to I12 to realise..... we're late for the movie and we can't buy anymore. FAIL. Left Madagascar 3 which Luke die die die die and die don't want to watch. -_____- So in the end we walked to Katong to play snooker first. Then play lan. Until 630. LOL. Night = burned. Walked to upp east coast road with wj and sameo to have our breakfast. Luke and Jolene went off already :)

Had the most expensive prawn noodle in my life... a $5.50.... EVERY EXPENSIVE LEH OMG.... Then walked to the bus stop to go home and yeap reached home at 9. -_-

K slept until like 5+ and shower to go out to meet my babes, peiyi and crissy. Had salmon for $8.15! Damn wu hua and shiok :D I seriously don't mind the price... Comparing a $8.15 salmon or sogurt I still choose salmon hahahah. Who can resist that!!! :D Ok then crissy gotta go for family dinner and I accompanied peiyi to hawker for dimsum for her dinner while waiting for wj. Wj came and we went to wait for bus stop. Sameo wasn't picking up my calls..... damn angsty lol. Went cine with wj first and sameo finally WOKE UP. Told him to cab down we kup his cab lol.

So we caught... The Dictator. OH YEAHHHHHH HEHE. It was funny hahahaha and when Aladeen don't have the beard he really looks like CY. LOLOL. Movie ended at 11 and we went home separately. Bumped into Christopher in the bus.. Slept the whole ride waha and I'm here!

So sick for school tomorrow. RHD having a free block and I have to go school. :( But nevermind that means during the first month of P2 I only have that one module! Don't have to juggle 2 hehe. Ok gonna go.. dota. BYE :D

How are you? :) 

Hmm~

HELLO. :)

What did I do yesterday...? Oh right I went out with #TTC! Actually not TTC. Put it this way, I went out with Zhikai and Chenhao. LOLOL. Ok met Chenhao at marine parade at 5+ then we went to eat sogurt!!!! OMNOMNOMZZZZZ THIS TIME I ATE MANYMANY. ^_^ We shared the cup hehe. 

pix all koped from chenhao's instagram wahaha

Hmm then we eat while walking to teo heng~ went in and sing first and zk came~ :D sang till 8 we went to eat katong laksa! Been to katong so long but didn't eat the laksa before >< it was nice nice + I added otah. OTAH CRAVING: TICK! Then weijie came along, followed by Noah! Omg Noah botak LOLOLOL. I sayang him he say very shiok hahaha. :) :) :) wanted to watch movie but no time in the end we went I12... to watch Noah Zk and weijie play maximum tune... LOL. 

Went off earlier to meet pk oppa for supper. Walked to macpherson lane~ eat then walked back, came home to play blackshot with chenhao.. then dota with luke. 

I woke up at 5 today! Shiok sia hehehe. ^_^ Gonna go out to eat dinner with another weijie omg got 2 weijie now.... -_- and junlin. GOODBYEZ.

Hope you have fun at chalet. :) <3 I chose to believe.. I believe.

OH YA. I have a new profile pic for both my twitter(FINALLY!) and facebook.

HAHA. I named this pic cutegirl.jpg hen ke ai hor hehe

And yeap no more dirty yellow or orange colour!

Now iz all highlights :) :) soft soft and more mature.

Who want jio me please put down number cos got a lot of guys waiting in line HAHAHA WTS.

K, really. Byebye :)

Siansiansian

HEEEYYYYY. I'm home~ after drinking at Maxwell market!

Ok so hmm. Jarren came over my house to meet me first <3 love her mua mua mua kisses many many hehehe. Then sit around, went off to town. Ate pepper lunch together at 313 food republic! Jarren seems so caring to her friends hahahahaha been so long since we go out. I miss her :'( I was like telling her,"Eh wts we should meet more la." Then she said something that makes me feel so.. happy. HAHA. "Aiya even if we don't meet often the bond between us is still strong and there right." :') I really don't mind I only have her that followed me through secondary school. I shall, meet her often in the future :)

K then we met Anita and her friend outside 313. Found the friend so damn familiar.... ok then we went over cine, I saw Keith :) then went down to cab to Holiday Inn. In the cab I asked the friend where she live.. she said Clementi. I asked whether she know Brenda, she said ya. Okay.... but I still feel that she is damn familiar....

After we reached, bought jager YAY. Ok then cab over to Maxwell market. I asked if she knows Victor. She said she don't know the surname but she say the nose sharp sharp one. I'M LIKE HAHAHAHA OK. SHAGGED MAX. Jarren also LOLOLOL. Turns out she is Jeraldine's best friend, Natalie! She is like so friendly~ hahahaha. Drank with them and another friend came. Then I stoned there until 12 when they are about to go Play, Jarren and Natalie waited for the cab with me. So now I'm here :) :) :)

K wait only. Wait for 2 more months. I'm a fucking free soul to stay out late.

Anyway, on the cab home start feeling so damn sad HAHAHAHA. Wanted to buy otah BUT NO MOREEEEE. WHYYYYY. I didn't eat otah for so damn long I think got 2 months now don't have OMGOMGOMG. Just when I wanna eat. Ok nvm tomorrow I go early to chope otah. >:(

Ok gonna munch on chips now goodnight! :D

Pathetic is me.

HARLOWZ. I just finished a near 80 min dota2 game with Luke and Hayden HAHAHAHA. So funny that we kept laughing in the game. But yeah we lose because got dogs at the opponent team but oh well! Having fun is all that matters :)

Yesterday night went out to PP to have dinner.... at mac. Hahahaha. Met Sameo, Weijie at mac. Then Luke and Jolene came :) ate and went Sogurt omnomnomzzzzz ^_^ since so long that I ate Sogurt so yummayeeeeezzzzz :) Didn't eat a lot though.. stomach was feeling very bad yesterday :( ok then Angela came.. no idea who that is..... yeap.

Walked over to Katong to play lan hahahaha. Played one round of dota with Weijie, then went to play Blackshot hahahaha they taught me.. okay they didn't...... I just figured my way out since I played Gunz before lolol. Slash slash shoot shoot -_- Went off at 230 and Luke was hungry... so we went to a coffeeshop to eat. Then Luke still wanna play. "NIGHT TOO YOUNG" lol. So Weijie left at coffeeshop cos he have camp the next day. So the 3 of us went back.. oh Jolene went off even before we play lan, Angela went off for the last bus.

Played dota 1 round, then bs then it was already 5.... hahahahha. Cabbed home and slept until 4 YAYYYYYY. So happy. ^_^ Ok so I am staying at home today because.... I have no more money, duh. Hahahahaha. And well... staying at home means something... feeling like shit.

Yup. Everyone have their group of friends of boyfriends/girlfriends to watch movie with them... but I don't have any. I feel so... lonely. I checked Cathay. Turns out Avengers is still available. I guess... I just have to catch it alone. The thought when I know you are suppose to bring me to the cinema for Avengers, but not anymore, I tear. I felt thousand of needles poking at my heart. I can no longer do that. I feel so... useless. No one knows how I feel because they won't get themselves in this situation. I wonder if one day, something happened to me, who knows?

I feel so upset. That you can give advice to your friend that you can try and it might not be wrong. If you don't, it will be. But look at what you're doing. You're not even trying. I'm so sick... and tired. Sick and tired of waiting for miracles to come true. Waiting for you to give me a text saying "I'm outside your house now. Can you come out?" or "If I'm back, will you love me the same way?" Idk. I just can't accept the fact that you left, even without trying. Even until now. I feel so fucking worthless. Because Jamuel left also without trying. YOU TOO. YOU FUCKING TOO. WHY. Am I really that worthless?????? Am I? Someone tell me?????

I feel like dying.

爱终了。

Helloooooo blog. Sorry hasn't been blogging well... so I'll slowly say what happened okay? :)

Was having submission last week, staying in school until late night like 10+ 11+ 12 everyday until Friday. Having different group of friends with me helping out with my work. :) Thanks a lot, really. I wish all these friends are my classmates instead. Friends from EVD and IAD are so much more friendly to me. Thanks iggy for helping out with my 3ds max and also with michie's. John, kenny, ama, hayden, the lovelies from 3dart! I will miss them :) <3 Friday after 3dart submission Mdm Tia treated us to Mac lunch! So sweet. Although she is naggy but she know each of our attitude very well, guiding us along. I mizz herrrrr.

Ok so Friday even though after the submission I still stayed in school until evening to do up the paper model which I didn't do. Then impromptu dinner with Luke. :) Went PP to meet him, ate, and his friend Weijie came. Then no idea what to do... so we went to Katong for pool~ Bumped into Sameo and his friend Eugene. Played a bit but seriously off the damn form lol. We played billiard first -_- table too big for me please. Then changed to pool but also fail omg. Then we went lan to play one round of dota muahahaha. Then fail LOLOL. Sibei sad.

Eugene went off and we went over to Weijie's house at Siglap. Ton at his house, watched The Transporter 3. Played badminton outside his house at 3 in the morning. Went home around 530 lol. That jokers... nice meeting them really. :) went home and sleep, woke up use laptop then went out in the night. To weijie's house. Brought my laptop along... and took bus to erm.. where is that.... hahaha idk. To Chonghung's grandparents' house. Waited for Chonghung to come... in his Audi... with his girlfriend. Went in, the house is really big!!!!! Biggest house I've been to no joke please. Got basement. Basement have pool table, sound proofed room for ktv, got tv. Basement up stairs got bed. Then living room got bar blahblah -_- and the garden can play soccer lol......

Slack inside, played dota with weijie and went out to the garden to sit and chit chat. Oh Justina came too. Weijie's friend but she is from ADM! :) waited for Chonghung to send his girlfriend home then we went out to eat supper at Fei fei wanton at Joochiat. Ate and went back Weijie's house.... knocked out. Slept for 4 hours until 10. Luke went off to meet Jolene already hahaha and Justina took taxi home when Chonghung dropped us. Woke up and played dota... idk doing shit stuffs, ate lunch, nua again. Then sleep for 4 hours again hahaha. Ate dinner while watch Terminator Salvation on Ch5, went home at the last bus which is like 1044. -_-

Went home and wrote the confession for Victor. It was 17 then. Our 5th month, if nothing happened. Wrote while tearing, wishing everything was the same. Went to bed at 1. Woke up and realised I was late for my appointment at Toni&Guy. Rushed out and did my hair until 4. Went to meet Kokhua at Bugis with his friends. :) Then went to Sims drive with him and sat at the void deck talking to him until I tear again haha. Weibin came and he went up for dinner first. Talked to weibin about our future jobs and all, then hua came down and they started practicing. I helped them with the vocals hahaha sing until I want stab myself kept making mistakes :( might be doing covers with them yay so fun! :D

Went over to Temasek Green to meet Chenhao to drink at his hostel. He cooked maggie for me then we drank. Retarded guy loses in 5 10. HAHAHA I too pro :$ Ok anyway stopped drinking after 3 or 4 cups went in the room to settle down and started crying while I'm drunk lol. He kept asking me not to cry and comforting me but I can't stop lol. Tears just kept flowing and I said I even wanted to call him and ask why he don't want me. Went to vomit.... then rest at the living room.. rest for 30 min, puke again. The vodka was burning in my throat. So I slept it off and woke up around 4 realising I lost my voice... stupid vodka. :(

So yeap until now my voice is still gone~~~~ dammit. K I'll blog, soon! No plans for today yet. Boo. Gdbye guys :)

Stinging pain.

So. I decided I'm not gonna wait anymore because I'm not a toy that you want you talk to and when you don't want to you kick me away. And currently I'm in my submission week. I don't want to see any unexpected message coming in that make me can't focus.

Die die had to cry infront of Simon again. At least it was Simon and not other lecturer. Him being so nice trying to ask me to catch up though he don't know what is wrong with me. Previously cried infront of him because you just had to talk to me in that manner.

Seriously why????? I always ask myself am I not that worthy for a person to try? And why can't you just put yourself in my fucking shoes. Like I have to tahan with your tired feeling and being busy. And you just had to come and poke a needle no wait... not just one. Poke NEEDLES into my heart instead. I had to brush it aside about how your parents treat me because all I wanted was to spend time with you even if I had to put up with what they say. I seriously don't mind but you just had to say,"No.. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable." Or whatever not. I am already willing to, why you just don't support me?

K la fine maybe another girl will please your parents k. I'm not good enough ok. You will probably be thinking: Since you had to tahan, I might as well be the bad guy and let her be happy instead.

Guess what? F U C K O F F W I T H T H A T T H I N K I N G. Don't even think of me? I'm already letting things go the way they want but yet all you can think is just the negative and not supporting me.

Maybe lovers are just not suitable for us. I feel the stinging pain in my heart and I feel like hiding at one corner and I feel like having Mich and Chenhao passing me their fever so I can just get sick and not think of anything else. I feel so fucking weak but I had to laugh it off when I'm fucking crying inside. I am always thinking that you might just pop up at my room's window looking at me or trying to call me when I am having a nap. Hoping to see you outside my house is the best thing I'd ever wish but I stopped hoping because since you don't have enough time for me it means you don't have time to come my house either.

"Time is you find yourself." Guess I'm just not important enough to be part of your schedule.

Loving you is the greatest sin I had done.

I will just.. focus with my school work, #TTC, partying, secondary school lovelies, and focus on my dream. To be flying around the earth with a free soul, if I'm the only one there.

Thanks.

Hello. I'm back. Went to nap since I woke up so early.. but only to sleeping bad prolly because family all shouting outside the room and the door isn't close. Went out to serangoon to get the hair chalk I bought.. then over to nex to get scrap book for 3d art journal.

So.... I really thank those friends sticking around me and worried about me. Love you guys. Firstly, I wanna thank

Chenhao. Once I asked anybody awake in the morning he replied on our #TTC whatsapp but I didn't reply and he came over Facebook to find me. Xie xie ni :') see you tomorrow in school <3

Smallbear. I texted her too. And once she woke up she gave a sweet text. The line that I love.. "You deserve so much better than all he can ever give." :') love you.

Michie. The moment she woke up she replied my text. Telling me to be strong and I can do it.

Gonna meet pk oppa later for dinner at Geylang so I'm gonna thank him first. I think he will be saying some bullshit but still he is there. Xie le.

Well other #TTC members doesn't know and even if they know they can't help #newbieslesigh but I know they will comfort me but then again I don't wanna make them worry. So love you guys. I don't know what to say anymore.. but I'm gonna type in Mandarin. Here goes..

北比，你有在看吗？我知道我应该说什么，也不知道我能说什么，能让你不离开。我不知道我还在撑什么，因为你都已经放弃了。让我最失望的是，你都还没尝试为了我，为了这份爱改进，你就想离开。说实在的我真的觉得我不够资格被爱。每份爱情··· 都需要男女主角放心让那份爱变得甜。不单单一个人就能做得到。如果因为女主角是我，让你不想在尝试··· 我明白。自己都觉得自己很没用，自己是个扫把星。说着说着眼泪一直滑过嘴角。好没用啊。。。如果真的留不住你的话，请答应我最后一次看你。突然想起我还有好多事还没跟你做。。。也突然好想你。两个星期没见到你了。你有想我吗？应该没有吧。。。还在期待什么呢？笨蛋。也不知道你有没有来读我的部落各。我在你心里，到底是什么？是你的玩偶，要就轻声细语的说话，不要就把我丢掉？我也不应该在撑了。反正我知道我已经尽了力，是你自己过不了你那关，对吧？我也快18了。也没什么青春省的了。我也该去寻找我的快乐，而不是躲在家里哭泣吧。真的谢谢你，谢谢那些年的爱。如果真的分的话，请记住我还是你的朋友。请别对你以后的女朋友相对我这样。应该不会。。。因为你父母应该会喜欢她。只要不是我就对了。也请记住，我是曾经为你哭到天荒地老的傻瓜。

我爱你。

<3.

Anyway.. I wanna put some lyrics here that I listen in Hebe's song which are really.. helping me say what I can't say.

田馥甄 - 還是要幸福

不确定就别亲吻 感情很容易毁了一个人
一个人若不够狠 爱淡了不离不弃多残忍

你留下来的垃圾 我一天一天总会丢完的
我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恒在你的身上先发生

你还是要幸福 你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你还是要幸福 我才能确定我还得很清楚
确定自己再也不会占据 你的篇幅
明天 开始 这一切都结束

还我钥匙的备份 我觉得再见可以很单纯
我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恒在你的身上先发生

你还是要幸福 你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你还是要幸福 我才能确定我还得很清楚
确定自己再也不会占据 你的篇幅
明天 开始 这一切都结束

你还是要幸福 你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你如果很幸福 半夜的简讯我就无需回覆
因为你的悲喜已经有了 容身之处 我也 能有 最纯粹的孤独

最孤独 的孤独

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好

還是原來那個我 不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦 
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容 

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯 
早點認錯 早一點解脫 

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱 
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉 
死不了就還好 

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑 
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉 
人本來就寂寞的 借來的都該還掉 
我總會把你戒掉 

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你有改變什麼 
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果 

會有什麼 什麼都沒有 
早點看破 才看得見以後 

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱 
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉 
死不了就還好 

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑 
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉 
人本來就寂寞的 我總會把你戒掉

田馥甄 - 我想我不會愛你

你的呼吸 穿過身體
我來不及反應
你的聲音躲在耳裡 讓我生病
謝謝 你給的讓我沉迷
讓我丟掉了姓名
在好奇的時候 拉不住眼睛

我想我不會愛你 這樣下去
渺小的自尊都快要拋棄
我想我不會愛你 只是也許

你的歎息 散落一地
讓我歇斯底里
靠得太近一不小心 弄傷自己
謝謝 你給的讓我沉迷
讓我困住了自己
在迷路的時候 捨不得離去

我想我不會愛你 這樣下去
渺小的自尊都快要拋棄
我想我不會恨你 傷的痕跡
住在我心底 變成了秘密
我想我不會愛你 害怕失去
所以逞強的 遠遠看著你
我想我不會恨你 只是也許

我想我不會愛你 這樣下去
渺小的自尊都快要拋棄
我想我不會恨你 傷的痕跡
住在我心底變成了秘密
我想我不會愛你 害怕失去
所以逞強的 遠遠看著你
我想我不會恨你 只是也許

田馥甄 - My Love

如果你被他伤的很痛 
请感谢他好心折磨 
如果你对他感到愧疚 
请感谢他慷慨泪流 

在我们相遇相爱之前 
多亏有他让你成熟 
如果你现在孤独寂寞 
请感谢这美丽等候 
如果你还在为爱犯错 
请感谢还没找到我 
要走完每个曲折路口 
我们才懂爱是什麼 
Oh~ My Love~

如果庆幸我值得拥有 
请感谢我被放弃过 
如果欣赏我坚强温柔 
请感谢那珍贵伤口 
在我们相遇相爱之后 
遗憾都会变成收获 
Oh~ My Love~ 

当我们终於紧紧相拥 
所有苦难会甜美结果 （甜美结果 ）
我们就耐心逗留（耐心逗留）
爱会来到 在对的时候
Oh~ My Love~

田馥甄 - 魔鬼中的天使

把太细的神经割掉 
会不会比较睡得着 
我的心有座灰色的监牢 
关着一票黑色念头在吼叫 

把太硬的脾气抽掉 
会不会比较被明了
你可以重重把我给打倒 
但是想都别想我求饶 

你是魔鬼中的天使 
所以送我心碎的方式 
是让我笑到最后一秒为止 
才发现自己胸口插了一把刀子 
你是魔鬼中的天使 
让恨变成太俗气的事 
从眼里流下谢谢两个字 
尽管叫我疯子 不准叫我傻子 

把太硬的脾气抽掉 
会不会比较被明了 
你可以重重把我给打倒 
但是想都别想我求饶 

你是魔鬼中的天使 
所以送我心碎的方式 
是让我笑到最后一秒为止 
才发现自己胸口插了一把刀子 

你是魔鬼中的天使 
让恨变成太俗气的事 
从眼里流下谢谢两个字 
尽管叫我疯子 不准叫我傻子 

随人去拼凑我们的故事 
我懒得解释 爱怎么解释 
当谁想看我碎裂的样子 
我已经又顽强 重生一次 

你是魔鬼中的天使 
所以送我心碎的方式 
是让我笑到最后一秒为止 
才发现自己胸口插了一把刀子 

你是魔鬼中的天使 
让恨变成太俗气的事 
从眼里流下谢谢两个字 
尽管叫我疯子 不准叫我傻子

田馥甄 - 你太猖狂

能約出來的人都約光 
能吃得下的早已吃光
很用力談笑 比哭還絕望
怎麼挨得到打烊

我以為痛苦可以分散
於是我忙到不能再忙
忙到忘記了洗掉你所有短訊
一字一巴打在我臉上

思念太猖狂 一個冷不防
一想起你 忙碌的生活變得空蕩蕩 
對心事說謊 把你想到多麼的不堪
偉大的你還想我怎樣

我以為工作能夠療傷 
甚至恨不得病倒再算
沒力氣遐想 誰知癱瘓在床上
越發渴望你就在身旁
思念太猖狂 一個冷不防
一想起你 忙碌的生活變得空蕩蕩
對心事說謊 把你想到多麼的不堪
偉大的你還想我怎樣

你也太猖狂 一個冷不防
睡到一半 才覺醒療傷先要哭一場
對世界說謊 只把自己哄騙得更慘
想得到釋放只有投降
想得到釋放只有投降

Goodbye.

...

Hi guys. It is 10:34 on a Sunday morning. And the only reason I'm up is because.. I'm crying. Woke up to the text of V, saying that he will leave. I started crying. Past few days I was still strong enough to stop crying. But after Hebe's concert I get a little pain inside. She said something about love.. Love has it process. And currently in mine.. I don't know. It is like shit now. Singing with feelings overflowing, I felt it and became like zzz. I wonder how many days of tearing in school. But I must hang onto it because it will be submission week and I can't afford to do bad work because of this. Though I'm really pain inside, crying inside, but I must be strong. I think I'm the world's best actress at looking fine.. but actually I'm not.

(i took a break.. because my dearest friend came and talk to me)

I am stopping here. Thanks.. to my friends. X