Hi. So Friday really got mc for KeeJan's class. Went home around 4 and napped at 6.

Went to meet sec sch mates for Halloween event at.. CEMETERY. Oh yeah. Lame event really. Wasted money, time, sweat. -_-

Usual hangout today with my favourite babies. Went to suntec todayyyyy :) oppa came and fetched me and went over to bugis to eat dinner. Went home then out with him to wash his bike~

Gonna go school earlier tomorrow to complete my assignment. Then maybe In Time with oppa woohoo Justin Timberlake <3

Anyway... since school starts, or rather since the sem holidays started a month ago, a lot of things are different since then. Like we're all not going school therefore we don't see each other almost everyday, and we got different schedule during holidays. Most importantly, our plan of how we spend the holidays. To me, there is no such thing as 'no time to meet'. You can always find time. Is whether you have the heart or not. But apparently, not everyone have the heart to.

I feel that my poly life is kinda screwed. Like my friends have their schedule after school. I'm always there to spend time with so please la stop spending with your other friends that you meet umpteen times in the holiday and meet other people that you haven spend QUALITY TIME with. By quality time I mean spend time asking how's life, laughing together.

I feel like a loser but yeah. I hope you guys know.

One word to describe my school life: Fucked. Thanks oppa that is always there. Grrrr. Bai.

Coming here to rant tonight because twitter is too short, facebook is too public.

Quarrelled with my mom and sister today. Reason being: I bought rice cake for my sister, asked her for money, she said she don't have, and went over to my mom and complain saying I am being stingy for asking her for the money. GUESS WHAT MY MOM REPLY. "Don't need give her la! She take my prepaid cards also never pay, don't give her the money." Joke of the year man mom. YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?

Got fucking pissed and shouted back saying that when my sis buy food for me she also demands her money back. The only difference: She asked when my mom isn't around. Then the world greatest mom went all over saying I'm bigger than her, treat her good and all. HI MOM IF YOU CAN READ, SINCE WHEN I DIDN'T TREAT HER GOOD? LOOK WHO THE FUCK IS TALKING MAN SERIOUSLY.

I cook maggie for her. I buy poster for her. I gave my bag to her. I help her cover blanket when the weather is cold. THE ONLY DIFFERENCE: Mom, you didn't see them all. Ok la sorry epic fail to being a good sister that mom doesn't recognise. Go ahead and laugh. When I said my sister was being stingy to me my mom even replied with a question,"Huh, when?" Huh when. Fuck you.

Got agitated and cried out of anger. The only thing I hate the most in my entire life is being accused. I always got accused since young. Like beating my sister when she was the one beating me. Like not sharing food when she didn't wanted to share hers. Like even when we sleep she put up a restricted air-zone that we can't cross over, when I crossed, she slapped my leg. When she did, she puts up a cheeky smile. Sorry not cute at all. Just feel like slapping at your fucking face.

When was the last time I seriously cried because of my family? I really can't recall. But all this unnecessary shit today is caused by who? My sister. She used my mom that dotes on her more than me. And go all up finding fault when my mom is around.

Mom doesn't realise that her words hurt a lot. Like seriously, at the thought of it I can just drop tears. Saying things like,"IF I KNOW I WILL GIVE BIRTH TO A CHILD THAT WILL PROVOKE ME, I RATHER DON'T GIVE BIRTH AT ALL." Thanks ah mom that was very encouraging. In the future, I won't have kids ok?

Sister don't even know that it was her fault. No sorry was said. No la it's okay it has always been like that for the past 16 years. I'd live my life pleasing my sister like she's a princess. _l_ So my mom mentioned about me not paying her the money for the prepaid card, I dug out my 50 bucks from my pay last time and throw in her face ok. Writing her a note later. If it's what you mean by geh gao about money with your daughter, we play the game all day long k. If she doesn't accept my 50 bucks, I'll go berserk. You got angry because I didn't pay. Now that I pay, you dw it. The fuck mom?

I'm so tired of the bullshit and treatment getting all these years from my family. The one that I can only talk to is my elder sister. But she's always not around.. Thanks to oppa that was there but went offline because he went to pick up gf no la gf more important. The next person I can think of is V. But he didn't pick up the phone.. thought I was alright since I was no longer crying.. but he ring back asking why I called. All of the sudden the tears came back like reservoir. Guess I really shocked him. Sorry :(

Still crying now. Headache. Have to sleep now. Feel like getting mc or just not go for lesson for KeeJan because I'm really not feeling good. Night.

Holla~ :) it's 3 now. I have to get up at 8 later on. Gonna munch on my chix bao that I got from 7-11 earlier on with oppa.

Ahyeah, first day of school was alright.. just that I didn't know my elective will have year 2s. Like 9 ADM year 2 seniors. Hahaha howwwww. :( went home and napped for 6 hours straight woah life man. I did the same thing on Tuesday too. :D

Wedesday is a Deepavali Day~ TGIF: Today Got Indian Festival. Not racist but really funny hahahaha. Laughed in class when I saw it on facebook. Spent the public holiday at home.. wanted to head over to the cathay's starbucks but the lightning and thunder, no joke. Saw the lightning ahhhhh scary shitz.

Gonna go school later on and I just completed the mind map wahaaaaa. Plans after school: Go home, bring hasbro stuff down to give them at bugis, then buy doboki!!!!! Very nice ^^ then head home and nap hahahah shiok.

Anw, I saw something just now and it's really funny. I like how you phrase it. Hahaha joker.
On a side note, it's been more than 6 months since I'm single. Time really past very fast. Settled my mind to not get involved in any relationSHIT in poly. Idk, just trying. Because I always end up at the same place.

GONNA GO JOHOR SOON. GETTING CONTACTS THERE. Stupid contacts giving irritation straight after wearing. K off to watch City Hunter. Bai :)

Hai. Back home after prata with xiao di. :) stayed at home the entire day.. finally I got out of the house woohoooooooo. :) Oh and, school is starting in less than 7 hours, HOW GREAT OK. None of my friends got in the same elective as I did, except for one classmate known so far. Sighhhhh. :( Enough of school ok. Thinking of it burns me.

Went to The Cathay yesterday with V. :) Caught 'The Thing'. Guess what? I paid money to freak myself out. I'm so sorry V, that I had to grab you till the extent of hurting you with my nails -__- dui bu qi. Went home after that. :)

Anyway I'll post a photo of my new hair colour that I dyed last Monday, but the colour faded. THERE IS NO LONGER PURPLE. WHAT'S LEFT IS ONLY COPPER. Don't laugh la. I'm hurt ok. The cheaper you get the deal, the lousier you get for the service.

Alright gonna troll around because I need to wait for the food to digest before heading to bed. TP School Of Design, see you in 6 hours. :'(

It's 2:43 in the morning, I showered 15 min ago, my eyes are half closed, but I don't wanna go to the bed yet BECAUSE IT'S NOT EVEN THREE. TIME PAST FUCKING SLOW.. So damn bored. :@

Ok so I met jeshere on phaeday phaeday.. shit how to sing Rebecca Black's Friday? Went to city plaza and got her first mini collection for her blogshop! :) So hyped for her. I'm always having this thought of opening a blogshop myself but I scared I can't cope and I don't even have the stamps, have the envelopes, have this and that. OH I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME WHEN SCHOOL STARTS. JOKEEEEE.

Went home soon after.. then went out in the night around 11 to fetch KH back from Canada! Saw him for only 2 min and he's off with his family hahaha the fuck. So I was left alone at the airport tapping wifi watching Running Man, then got thirsty, went off to Cheers to get 2 for $2.20 pokka drinks and one magazine to read. Oppa came to fetch me and off we went to geylang for supper again. Hahaha. Chilled until 3 and we go home~

Met V on Saturday!!!!! Hahaha this holiday meet him until shiok shiok before school starts ok. :) Went to visit Michie at work @ Taka Watsons. :) When school starts we can all hang out together like we used to because each of us have different plans going on so we don't see eat other. We as in the 4 of us- Hayley, Michie, Jesh and me. ^^

Went off around 8 because he got doctor appointment sigh paiseh kiaaaaa. Went to find KH and went geylang(3 DAYS IN A ROW) to eat. Forget to get the fragrance mist from him that he bought from Canada!! The smell really very nice ^^v The name of the mist is erm.. something SEDUCTION. Haha laugh sia.

Went home then out around 1 to eat prata with oppa ahahahaha. Chilled until 2 went home dota 3 rounds with Iggy. Steady. :) Slept at 630 haha. I don't know why I can't seems to sleep more than I used to back during the O's holidays. During that time I can sleep more than 12 hours. But now I can only sleep 10.. :( so annoying.

Stay home Sunday today. Butt sticked to the sofa using computer with nothing to do. Running Man, One piece, surf aimlessly. -_- Gonna have dental appointment at 9:20 tomorrow morning, and dyeing my hair at 2. Should I head home and sleep more? -_- Ok bye. Off to surf aimlessly now.

Hiiiii.

Went Geylang on Tuesday night with oppa to see some chickennnnn~ Hahaha was so scary walking the back alley. Absolutely dark.. -_- uh and that alley is all hm.. the blacks.... yeah. Ate supper there and walk around. Nothing much to see though. Since it was only Tuesday.

So Wednesday supposedly going out with V, but he got training, so I went out with my family for dinner, shun bian celebrate sister's birthday. After I suggest a dinner with family, V texted me to say that his training ended and that we can meet. WALAU SO SUAY LA. In the end we didn't. Idiot. Ate at Nihon Mura~ Woohoo.

Today.. went out with the town clique to eat dinner. SAKAE SUSHI. Been 3 years since I ate sakae. Haha. So many people came.. Also must thanks Michie for bringing me into this clique. ^^v went to some place and played arcade games, 6 bucks per hour only~ Played bishi bashi, pool and all. :) Met michie and samuel after that. It was already 1030 so all of us headed home~ :)

Must thanks Chenhao for spamming my phone with 250 messages continuously omg xie xie ni. Bitch. Haha.
SO HUNGRY THAT I WANNA EAT MAC AND CHEESE FROM 7-11 NOW.. but fuck it yesterday I went and they got limited packed meals. Dulan. Today so hungry no food. So pathetic that I'm eating maggie porridge. Cheebye. Ok watching running man, so bye.

Eyes closing already. :'( meeting jeshere tomorrow.. heading to city plaza wahaaaa. Bai~

HELLO! :)

Never blog for 3 days? Haha survived the last day. Didn't had more children than Saturday.. so I wasn't busy. :) Oppa came to find me then we went home together because I need some helping hand to carry the stuff lol. Went out in the morning yesterday.. came home to sleep somemore until 6+ hahahaha shiok.

SUPPOSEDLY MEETING JESHERE TODAY. SHE TELL ME LAZY MOVE HER ASS OK LOR CAN. Idiot. So today I'm staying at home :( sianz. Might be meeting V tomorrow but he got training ahhhhh wts. Need some plans man. :(

K bai~

WOOHOO! Vinyl poster only at 10 bucks plus it's A1 size! Taken during Hello Baby season also. Hee <3

Went to work and uh started out good with cute children but there is one that pissed me off. Bitch. What you mean by,"I don't want to talk to you." You not even half my age talk so much. _l_ Went lunch at LJS with drained energy by those kids. Gave myself relax time by watching Star Golden Bell in my phone during the break. :) 

Felt so tired after break but what cheered me up was.. there were two japanese kids!!!!! Oh my god best day in my life they are so fucking cute la! Then the smaller sister quarrelling with her brother, don't let him play the dough lol. Best: Their mom look like Tae yeon from SNSD hahaha no joke. I wanted to tell her but they went off -_- Gradually approaching the last hour and havoc kids came. ADDRESS ME AS AUNTY SOMEMORE. GO BANG WALL OK. WHICH PART OF ME LOOK AUNTY. :'( so hurt lor. -_-

Went home entirely drained.. took the new completed circle line straight from harbourfront to macpherson. This guy in the train sitting beside me look at me like I'm an alien or I owe him something. Dude you got problem don't stare stare can. I sit at priority seat cannot ah. _l_

Mom cooked the maggie mee that I bought prolly a week back. Love that maggie mee. In the past there is this pair of hands that helped me cook that maggie mee when I am hungry to the extend I ate 2 packet. But I found it in the shop that day and it look familiar so I bought it muahahahah love ittttt ^^ Anyway,  just finish watching Running Man episode 41!! Last appearance of Joong Ki. So sad please I teared along with Gwang Soo and Ji Hyo. Joong Ki so cute :'( y u leave running man sobsob. 

V texted me when I was working asking where am I. Haha crazy or what yesterday I thought of contacting him to meet before school starts. Today he text me! On my way to the MRT I nearly went up the escalator that was going down shit this wasn't paying attention because I was replying. Meeting him next week I guess omg miss him one month plus never see his jiao bin already lol. 

Gonna troll around awhile more. There's work tomorrow god damn it. Sigh need income.. what to do. The wind is really strong + cold. Perfect weather to sleep under the blanket later. :) 

Signing offffffffff.

P/S: The rain just started pouring not gonna troll anymore early sleep tonight goodnight!!!

Morning, it's 4:30am in the morning now. Just got home from supper  at mac with oppa and bumped into 64 people inside hahaha we're like a family everywhere. :) Ah yeah I have work in the morn and I'm still here. Gotta finish this blog post quickly while letting the mac to digest and head to sleep soon zz dead.

Woke up in the morning earlier with only 4 hours of sleep the previous day and today I'm going to do the same thing sleep is for the weak. I'm strongest haha ^^v went for briefing at bugis and then I'm the first customer of bugis frolick today harharharhar. Sat there waiting for oppa and we went for lunch. Can't finish my food because I ate frolick first. Which idiot eat dessert before eating a meal? Me. Hahaha. Then we cab to suntec to get shoes for work. Best thing: The Rubi in suntec closed down. Fuck. Went up to the highest floor or idk tower what and bought one A1 size of SHINee poster shall post the photo up in the next post :) Onew sho keuuuuttttttttt hehehe. Took train to esplanade pathetic one stop and walk over to citylink to get rubi shoes after that. Meet oppa again to cab home cab charge ftw :D

-when I type until here my eyes are gradually closing zzz- went home to nap and out in the night to meet my maple friend!!!! Syahidah is her name! Chill at bugis foodcourt then went over to bugis street to walk around. Then my diarrhoea came hahahaha best. I think we got along quite well though we met each other the first time in real life! :) Reached home around 11. Yeap.

K mai tu liao gotta koon asap. Nights world. :)

Hello! Staying at home today. Supposedly meeting Jeshere and to go Ikea, but she have dinner at home so we changed to next week so we can go out longer muahahaha :D Though I feel like going out in the night to chillzzzzz :/ it's raining wish someone is there to cuddle with. :)

So gpa is out today. Well I got much more better than I expected. :) And yeah hell to the people who more like 2.something complaining shit. Hi I got 1.something ok. And I have a F for one module somemore fuck haha.

Uh yeah Steve Jobs passed away yesterday, #iSad trending on twitter haha very creative. Though I only own iTunes.. but yeah #thankyousteve for the revolutionary phone ok.

On movie for my mum to watch and she made us crab for dinner OK CRAB OK been long since I ate one! The last time I guess is erm.. starting of the year? But also not my mother cook one :( It's differenttttt. Well crab is like the appetizer. And I normally take very long to finish one crab. Yeah true enough I used 2 hours to finish. In the end my mouth got numb. -_- then actual dinner, which is also home-cook food.

Tomorrow job cancelled.. more of like I can't go because of the nail polish omg it's cadbury what if I can eat some of the chocolate haha :D so heading to bugis in the morning for some debrief then uh yeah I'll be free for the whole day already what the fuck. I wanna walk around but no one is free. Guess I might walk around alone tomorrow wooooo.

Yesterday midnight, huahua webcam me from Canada. I showed him the first post and he said,"What can we do about that?" Yeah we can't. Sigh. No point getting all pissed man, seriously. This guy skipped class that day. And he bought me a fragrance mist from Victoria Secret. HELL YEAH. On top of that... I told him to get me undergarments. He asked isn't it weird for me to tell him the sizing and all.. But I said isn't it weirder if he goes in the shop to pick out instead. Hehe.

Last but not least, halloween is coming! Uh not really but it's good to have some ideas beforehand so there is ample time to get the costume and etc!! I really love masquerade! Would love to have one for my 18 birthday haha that's da bombz.

Ok signing off bai! :)

Holla! New blog made thanks to michie. :) Uh yeah it looks like hers uh I no copy please :( Previously I made one with wordpress(2 posts only), but since blogger seems more comfortable then I changed to this space instead. I really love the background omg onew everywhere hahaha :)

Anyway.. I saw something today which boils me up. I can't believe I thought about you almost everyday after we split. You're such a jackass. Live the life you want seriously. Thanks by the way.. for teaching me one thing: Promises are meant to be broken. :)

Few days back I went to eat tau huay with oppa, and suddenly you became our topic. I described days like waiting for you at home when you're out with your friends, and that you come home later by 4 hours when you say you wanna get home ASAP. I thought maybe you grown. Maybe you became more matured. But I guess not. You're still the same old person being brought around by the nose.

When I saw the photos, I felt betrayed. Like you said it's your choice, and you absolutely won't do it. Till then I thought I was the one at fault and led us to this state. But you showed me otherwise. I guess I'm better living without you. Yes the ache is there, yes I'm still thinking about you, but I don't think you're worth my wait. And that you've already forgotten that I existed.

I don't know. I only want to be happy and enjoy life now. With my friends. Though I envy couples that are very sweet. Like they can compromise each other, and not quarrel almost everyday. I guess I'm not at that standard yet. When the times come, when someone finally step into my heart, I'll do my fucking best. For the past relationships, I done my best and what I got in return is shit. Maybe I done overboard, maybe this maybe that. It takes 2 hands to clap, so I don't think there is any overboard if the guy did his best too.

A very lengthy and emotional blog post to start up to be the first one. But I guess only at this tiny lil' space I can voice out what I can. Signing off. :)