Skipped school today. Went out with Smallbear in the evening. Just got home and the moment I sat down on my sofa.. there is this ache coming from idk where. I remembered this from relationships, like when your other party hurt you so much, that ache you know. OMG la it's still there I am very sick of all these already. 

Was crying so much last night that tears auto flow by itself. Even now that I'm writing this I feel like tearing. Adding on the the ache; no joke. So upset with myself since last night. My life is a utter joke. I can't stop saying because it really is. Joke much.

Talking about academic life with Michie. Got emotional because Idk what I want and I'm stuck in TDS which is not the thing that I want. I feel so sick of my life already.

End this torture, quick.

HI! Staying home on Saturday night hahahaha. Woke up at 11am because I slept at 830 last night fml -____- did open my eyes at 1am but just wanna sleep through lol.

Been looking at polaroid cams and I'm so fickle-minded to which one to buyyyyyyy :( stupid bitch. But the thing is I don't have the money so yeah no use pondering lol -__- fuckkkkk.

RHD is gonna have an overseas trip to Italy in April! Still wondering if I wanna go... :( sigh stupid bitch x2.

Went for DOC interview on Friday alone and it was gooooooood~~~ Well that's what I think hahah results coming out on Monday/Tuesday. *cross fingers*

Feels like calling mac delivery tonight :P been long since I ate supper hahahaha and didn't check my weight.. hmm.

Going for NYPCO concert tmr at Esplanade with Junlin :) date siaaaaa. Oh was watching 金马奖 and yeah! The main actor from 《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》 got the best new actor! :) :) heheheheh clap like siao hahaha.

Ok zai jian~

Hey.

Coming back to blog before I turn in for the night because my right bottom eyelid is swollen for goodness sake I don't even know what happened. Perhaps it was the contact lens or the eyelash that I found in my eye before sensing the swell.

Blogging here because I'm worried for Michie. Just saw your blog post and you're crying. When you said till shoulder I was freaked but when I saw the video it's not. Scare the hell out of me. It's really not that short. The waviness will come back in few days don't worry k. :) I know the waviness means a lot to you and you didn't had short hair before but it's gonna grow back so no worries. It's not even ugly. You're still you. :)

Alright gotta head to bed soon to rest my eye :( going for DOC subcomm interview tmr with ahran bro and jieru so scareddddd. K bai :)

HoooOooOoOoOOOolllaaaaaaa~ :)

Learning autocad now. The word that's ringing in my brain: OFFSET OFFSET OFFSET! -_- bought koi after sch and went home. Napped for 2 hours without my alarm on la. what the fuck. I think I was too stress. Thinking of new shoes and some shopping and V -_-

Fuck idk what I want. Go bang wall. :( deleted this app off my phone because it's fucked. PFFT. Can't have any thoughts nonono @_@

Anywayyyyyyy, Jam fb messaged me. Hahaha joker, after what? 7 months of not talking come and fb message me. NI HEN CUTE HOR? You know you can always sms right. Not like fb is the only place that we can talk. I don't mind talking, like catching up with each other's life but that's all to it k. Idw to hurt myself again. Same goes to V.

So, what's with this guy adding michie on fb? Don't come and know my friend please. What rights you have. You tore my relationship up now you wanna talk to my friend. DENG JIU. _l_

Today site visit to Civic District~ Steadyyyyy thinking of going home straight from there since by the time we reach sch also near peak hour. Might as well go home from there. :)

DOC subcom recruitment starting today till Friday. :/ gpa like shit still want my adcademic results. -.- K enough of ranting sigh gonna sleep soon bai

Boo. Hate it when V doesn't reply to my texts when I care for him.
Idk what he wants -__________-
If you're reading, tell me what are your feelings please.
Feelings not the way like whether you like me or not.
Is whether you feel comfortable of me caring.

Geez sui bian la bu guan le. Wanna buy some shoes. LITA! Platforms failing me :(

Stay home Saturday night. YEAH!

Went Zirca the other day and it was shit. -_- retarded.
Saw people I know in and outside of it oooooh.
I'm so bored. Plans cancelled today. Stoopid V forget he already had plans today le sigh.
Need some income srsly k bai.

Taken in class this morning new galaxy top that I bought from Smallbear :)

Was listening to the theme song for 那些年我们一起追的女孩 and feel very sad. Like having a love that you could have but you missed it. :'( suo yi I came and blog sigh so emo nao @_@

In keejan's class now abcdefg simi presentation I don't have inspiration fml :( 

Michie xiao jie sleeping now gonna go down for lunch soon fuck this 

Yo sup sup sup. Caught 那些年我们一起追的女孩 with Michie. Both of us didn't make it to school today -_- didn't even know there is a presentation la walau kevin y u no say. Sad ending sobsob cries tears everywhere haha.

OH DUI LE, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPPA!

Hope you likey the prezzie haha. Cheap cheap 50% off and nice somemore hehe good loot. If I have a boyfriend I buy him the clothes liaoz. ^^ but um too bad I don't have so suck it up zz.

Cuzz came out from malaysia for holiday had dinner on saturday with family and then today at kfc before seeing him again on CNY.

KEN U BELIEVE ET. I have to take the damn flight at 6am on the second day of CNY wtf. :( sadddddd if only we have a car.. no need to go back singapore so earrriiiii :( 

I so tired now I don't feel like doing work sigh last week of block already ni ma ma kuai dian pass this 2 blocks and 2 weeks of holidays coming~ @_@

HAI TODAY IS A FRIDAY. It's 11/11/11 no special day just that today will be good because I have no morning lesson~ and the lesson in the afternoon will be field trip to vivo YAY BABYYYYYY!

Wore the galaxy top to school today that I bought from Smallbear and yay so pweeeeety :) Having a very slack block shiokshiokshiok.

Met annwei bro ytd haha went around town, sat outside taka, turned my back and saw burberry. Thought of V haha ok fml -_- wtf man.

IT'S 4 BUT IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT AND ERM YEAH I SHOULD SLEEP. SHOULD I. I don't feel like using com liaoz blah k bai~

GARENA SUCKS. Useless app. Lag dao siao zen me wan retarded lor.

Hi. Been missing out on my life on this space. Life is pretty mundane. Going home after sch and all. Kinda bores me out like I've no friends to stay with even after school. Have to head home. So sick of it that I might just cry one day because I'm a loser with no friends to hang after school. Laptop can be my best friend.

Went out with family today to Nex at Balithai. A last minute one, yeap. And we changed our SCV box to the new one. We are supposed to be able to record shows and start over if we missed the previous part of the show but no I can't find the button so fuck it and wait till my sister is back home.

I'm still not getting over the fact that I'm heading home after school. What the fuck. Practically everyfuckingday. Give me a break from home and offer me out please someone.

I'm sorry V. I felt that I ruined something though I can't really say what it is.. maybe it's our friendship. Idk. Being a loner after school is bad enough now I have to lose a friend. Maybe I tried too hard. Maybe it will be better sticking to meeting once in a month if not I don't know what shit I will do. Like falling in love with you all over again which I can't let it happen.

I'm sorry Michie that I have to use this space to write to you because I find that sms is too much for me to type all out and no not msn nor skype nor facebook or even twitter. So I guess this is the only space. You might feel fucked that afterall this is not a very private space but if you really mind, do tell me and I'll take this part off okay.

Yes I know that ever since holidays started we didn't hang out a lot because you gotta work and you gotta meet your friends and all. Since then we start to have lesser topics to talk about. Like you said on your fs, I guess I'm only a classmate to you now. But I don't think this should be the way. At least we still have 5 more months before year 1 ends. As much as you don't want to leave Alfee, the feeling is with me. Like looking at you being heartbroken but you chose not to tell me and whenever there is time to ask you, you cut on me saying gotta talk to bbg on oovoo. I even tried to tell you how I feel on msn but you close down on me and went offline. Good job girl. Just tell me if you still want me as a friend. Not someone when you are in need of help then you go for. You see what I tweet and I see what you tweet. As much as your tweets are sad, I'll love to be there and advice you. And I'll love to see you coming to me asking what happen if I have any emotional tweets worth calling like you did in the past. Spamming calls when I don't pick up. I just hope that you'll understand that if you really want me there, you gotta do something about it and not just the effort I make. Like even spending time with me after school and not going back home straight every other day or meet your other friends because have you ever wondered when was the last time we spoke properly? Yes you gotta meet your friends but you have to balance. Or is it that you think losing one friend is alright because you have your favgirls plus hayley and your gilette girls. Adding on to the uncle that you're missing. If that's your choice I'm fine. Tell me straight that you don't need me there. Then that's the end of it.

Wrote the long paragraph till I am tearing fuck the last girlfriend that I'd even lay a tear on was gujuan. Fuck my life. Gotta grip a hold of myself before I really tear apart, like crying every fucking night to sleep when I did a year back literally. Bye.

Hello November! :)

School was alright past few days~ Glad I took Multimedia Fundamentals as elective! Doing a 5 min work gets you a 10%, WHY NOT. SHIOKISM. ^^v But drawing essentials still drains me or practically everyone up. At least in this block, no more of going home at 10pm onwards haha :)

Went out to eat dim sum at geylang just now WHO ZEALOUSSSSS hahaha shiok x2 ok woohoo~ This weekend is gonna be a long one!!!!! SHIOK X3. No school on Friday and Monday. Really. Gotta plan something man. I wanna go USS. :( Can't seems to get ppl to go with.. they are either not free or can't bring the time out!

Wanna work for this coming IT fair @ Expo but every IT fair clashes with school but I really need the money. Already thinking of earning money and buying polaroid. That's a want la but I really need a specs man. Been wearing a cui specs for around 7 months what the fuck. If not I gotta waste money to get contact lens sigh.

Gonna go troll around on the internet awhile more and off to bed k bye :)