Coming here to rant tonight because twitter is too short, facebook is too public.
Quarrelled with my mom and sister today. Reason being: I bought rice cake for my sister, asked her for money, she said she don't have, and went over to my mom and complain saying I am being stingy for asking her for the money. GUESS WHAT MY MOM REPLY. "Don't need give her la! She take my prepaid cards also never pay, don't give her the money." Joke of the year man mom. YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?
Got fucking pissed and shouted back saying that when my sis buy food for me she also demands her money back. The only difference: She asked when my mom isn't around. Then the world greatest mom went all over saying I'm bigger than her, treat her good and all. HI MOM IF YOU CAN READ, SINCE WHEN I DIDN'T TREAT HER GOOD? LOOK WHO THE FUCK IS TALKING MAN SERIOUSLY.
I cook maggie for her. I buy poster for her. I gave my bag to her. I help her cover blanket when the weather is cold. THE ONLY DIFFERENCE: Mom, you didn't see them all. Ok la sorry epic fail to being a good sister that mom doesn't recognise. Go ahead and laugh. When I said my sister was being stingy to me my mom even replied with a question,"Huh, when?" Huh when. Fuck you.
Got agitated and cried out of anger. The only thing I hate the most in my entire life is being accused. I always got accused since young. Like beating my sister when she was the one beating me. Like not sharing food when she didn't wanted to share hers. Like even when we sleep she put up a restricted air-zone that we can't cross over, when I crossed, she slapped my leg. When she did, she puts up a cheeky smile. Sorry not cute at all. Just feel like slapping at your fucking face.
When was the last time I seriously cried because of my family? I really can't recall. But all this unnecessary shit today is caused by who? My sister. She used my mom that dotes on her more than me. And go all up finding fault when my mom is around.
Mom doesn't realise that her words hurt a lot. Like seriously, at the thought of it I can just drop tears. Saying things like,"IF I KNOW I WILL GIVE BIRTH TO A CHILD THAT WILL PROVOKE ME, I RATHER DON'T GIVE BIRTH AT ALL." Thanks ah mom that was very encouraging. In the future, I won't have kids ok?
Sister don't even know that it was her fault. No sorry was said. No la it's okay it has always been like that for the past 16 years. I'd live my life pleasing my sister like she's a princess. _l_ So my mom mentioned about me not paying her the money for the prepaid card, I dug out my 50 bucks from my pay last time and throw in her face ok. Writing her a note later. If it's what you mean by geh gao about money with your daughter, we play the game all day long k. If she doesn't accept my 50 bucks, I'll go berserk. You got angry because I didn't pay. Now that I pay, you dw it. The fuck mom?
I'm so tired of the bullshit and treatment getting all these years from my family. The one that I can only talk to is my elder sister. But she's always not around.. Thanks to oppa that was there but went offline because he went to pick up gf no la gf more important. The next person I can think of is V. But he didn't pick up the phone.. thought I was alright since I was no longer crying.. but he ring back asking why I called. All of the sudden the tears came back like reservoir. Guess I really shocked him. Sorry :(
Still crying now. Headache. Have to sleep now. Feel like getting mc or just not go for lesson for KeeJan because I'm really not feeling good. Night.