HARLOWZ. I just finished a near 80 min dota2 game with Luke and Hayden HAHAHAHA. So funny that we kept laughing in the game. But yeah we lose because got dogs at the opponent team but oh well! Having fun is all that matters :)
Yesterday night went out to PP to have dinner.... at mac. Hahahaha. Met Sameo, Weijie at mac. Then Luke and Jolene came :) ate and went Sogurt omnomnomzzzzz ^_^ since so long that I ate Sogurt so yummayeeeeezzzzz :) Didn't eat a lot though.. stomach was feeling very bad yesterday :( ok then Angela came.. no idea who that is..... yeap.
Walked over to Katong to play lan hahahaha. Played one round of dota with Weijie, then went to play Blackshot hahahaha they taught me.. okay they didn't...... I just figured my way out since I played Gunz before lolol. Slash slash shoot shoot -_- Went off at 230 and Luke was hungry... so we went to a coffeeshop to eat. Then Luke still wanna play. "NIGHT TOO YOUNG" lol. So Weijie left at coffeeshop cos he have camp the next day. So the 3 of us went back.. oh Jolene went off even before we play lan, Angela went off for the last bus.
Played dota 1 round, then bs then it was already 5.... hahahahha. Cabbed home and slept until 4 YAYYYYYY. So happy. ^_^ Ok so I am staying at home today because.... I have no more money, duh. Hahahahaha. And well... staying at home means something... feeling like shit.
Yup. Everyone have their group of friends of boyfriends/girlfriends to watch movie with them... but I don't have any. I feel so... lonely. I checked Cathay. Turns out Avengers is still available. I guess... I just have to catch it alone. The thought when I know you are suppose to bring me to the cinema for Avengers, but not anymore, I tear. I felt thousand of needles poking at my heart. I can no longer do that. I feel so... useless. No one knows how I feel because they won't get themselves in this situation. I wonder if one day, something happened to me, who knows?
I feel so upset. That you can give advice to your friend that you can try and it might not be wrong. If you don't, it will be. But look at what you're doing. You're not even trying. I'm so sick... and tired. Sick and tired of waiting for miracles to come true. Waiting for you to give me a text saying "I'm outside your house now. Can you come out?" or "If I'm back, will you love me the same way?" Idk. I just can't accept the fact that you left, even without trying. Even until now. I feel so fucking worthless. Because Jamuel left also without trying. YOU TOO. YOU FUCKING TOO. WHY. Am I really that worthless?????? Am I? Someone tell me?????
I feel like dying.