Previously was playing blackshot.. zzzzzz~
OK anyway..... I'm friggin' tired. Went to pp today to meet my daddies and saw jean and yvonne awww i miss jean :) haha. Idk what to say but yeap I'm blogging............
Coming back home these days feeling damn sian.. the thought of being home is just.. not good. Like when you're outside you have your friends, to not make you think so much of what makes you upset. But the moment when you stepped into the bus alone. Wa the feeling really just come.. haha. Like being lonely. Like your heart is just not its usual self.. like very worried and panicking for something. Bleh~
I am like so sick of talking about you. But I just can't help but to keep asking why. Asking to myself. Was feeling so damn down yesterday.. tearing helplessly but thankfully wj was there to cheer me up hahaha tytyty. Feel so pathetic because I can't even.. cry anymore. I want to, I really want. But I just can't. I just have to turn to drinking, making myself drunk to don't know what I'm doing and just cry. And then the next day, I will be the same me again. I just need something... I wanna leave the country. I wanna go somewhere that no one knows and will judge me.
K I SHALL STOP IN CASE IDK WHEN I END. K BYE. <3 here is an old pic of me:
was waiting for michieteng to come over my house to sleep.. VERY VERY LONG AGO. Ok bye