Hello gaiz. :) Been long yeahhhhhhhhhh. Life is hmm... better now since there are no school. Like assignments blahhhhh. Been missing from here for a month plus. Had a lot going on but I don't come here and pen them down because I think it's too public sometimes so I rather hmm... keep it to myself. Prolly only comes here when I have something in mind..... like now.
Went out for dinner with Chermaine and Iggy. A very last minute at 4am in the morning as Cher just fb msg me and ask if I'm free for dinner and yup I was so we went Fat Boys' at Katong to eat haha. Then went over to Ice Cream Chef to eat some ice cream :) went home after that chasing after 155... to realise I took the wrong direction and it looped to a ulu place... a place where the driver opened the door and went behind a bush TO PEE AND LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE BUS. Ya I was the only soul in the bus other than the driver.. :( so scary zzz....
Came home with hmm... bad welcome from boyfriend. The way he speaks is different from how it is usually and from me knowing him for going 6 years... yup. He just 'nah' when i said he's unhappy about something. I always hate it when this happen. I find it funny when I'm obliged to tell him how I'm feeling but he doesn't need to. Does that mean I'm not powerful enough for him to SPEAK UP. Damn annoyed to an extent of crying, now and just want him to know but he just keep repeating the same thing over and over again. Like if I'm trying to solve things he just go offline and sleep. Normal human can sleep while quarreling? I'm amused, really. Or like keeping mum about whatever he's unhappy about like it will solve everything. Really sick of it. Trying to do the best of us but no he's not helping and I'm tired at times. Times like these I just fuck care everything and do my own thing because he has been affecting me like this for no reason. By affecting is hurting me. Times like this I just wanna do my stuffs and don't bother trying because it ain't gonna help since it can't only be me trying.
Hate it when we can't compromise each other. I care about you, and I know you're caring about me. But it's more to the extent of controlling me. Like who I go out with.. by controlling makes me feel that you don't trust me for taking good care of myself.. I always say I'm already 18. I'm not that young lil' stupid girl that you dated 3 years back. I had my times being single where no one is there to rely on and I do things myself. So put faith in me and trust me will you? Because I am sure you won't like the feeling of me controlling you either. I know you care, I really do. I love you.
I'm gonna leave this space... when I'm sad I'll be back. Off to watch anime which I am re-watching.. D. gray-man. Nights earthlings.