Hai guys.. I'm back. So fast huh haha. Went to babyboy's house yesterday and yep, shit happened... Hmm let's not talk about the shit now. Woke up about 3 plus yesterday because it started to rain in the morning and it was so comfortable that I didn't woke up until 3. :):):) ate a lil' and went over. Surprised him with Kinder Surprise :D:D:D it's back for this Easter! But it is damn expensive.. $4.80 for one egg booo. But I really like it so I bought 3 from Candy Empire ^-^
Played dota and we went out to Macs to eat dinner. Hmm stomach wasn't feeling well and we gotta da bao back. Sigh. So upset because I wanted to eat there and chitchat :(((( guess there will be another time :/ went back his house and I wanted to bathe so baby went to find towel for me. Since I'm going his house I don't bring a lot of necessities because I can just use his. Yup.
And um, did I mention that his mum doesn't like me? I have no idea why.. but hmm Victor was my ex-boyfriend 3 years back. And because things didn't work out, we broke off. I can say I was really to an extreme back then that I went over his house to look for his mum to talk about this. Ok that sounded really fierce but no I mean like I wished that he won't just leave for good like that and that maybe his mum can talk him out.. Then eventually things really didn't work out, I just call his mum at times to you know, ask how she's doing and all. Then CNY will just give a call and say Happy CNY that sort of thing.
Ok I'll say what happened to my relationships.. Throughout the 3 years that we are not together, as people know, I got together with Jamuel. But even when I'm with Jam, I started talking to Victor(but of course not frequently) after I feel that I can treat him as a friend and not someone that I hated because shit happened. And sometimes on fb I do post things and hinted that I'm sad, Victor will just text or comment to ask if I'm ok. Undeniable, I do check his fb to see how he's doing as a friend. And if I see that he's not feeling good I'll give him a text to give concern. Checking his fb becomes my routine ever since we broke up. So there was no way I won't check because it became my habit.
After me and Jam broke up, it was just the start of Poly. So I had poly friends around me to accompany me, and also workload was really a lot that's why I could pull through. And I think it was until last year September that I started going out with Victor. No we don't always go out. Like maybe once a month. Because he is an army boy, only free on Saturday. And not every Saturday is always for me so yeah once a month that is. But we do text and maybe some short calls.
We began talking a lot more than last time and got closer. Until this year Jan's that we got together after a lot of thinking and assurance.. So I went over his crib for the first time after so long, with his dad at home. I just greeted and eat at the living room and talk to Victor. His dad didn't really care about us and I wondered if he recognise me because uh I've grown up and looked different. Then the next visit I went, the parents were at home and I greeted the both of them. As times goes by I don't greet them or say bye when I'm going home because I realise that actually his mum doesn't like me. I find it very hard to go his house at times.. Previously his mum did show unhappiness about me but it was behind my back, as what baby told me. But now, it's different. She just show her unhappiness infront of me. Like as if my existence doesn't matter. I feel that I was not even treated as a human being because they have a cat and yeah I was treated badly than the cat. I am like a nobody.
The things she said was really very displeasing but I tried to brush it off. Afterall she is an elderly. Not until his dad shows that he doesn't like me too. There was this time that I went over and his father came in to pass baby his letter and looked at me with the 'What are you doing at my house. Gtfo now.' face. I was really very angry because I didn't come here to look at his parent's face. But I have to because he can't come over my house because my dad doesn't like him as he thinks that he is bad. And sometimes we just wanna cuddle and sleep and not going out so I'd no choice but to go over to spend time together.
Yup back to yesterday. I wanted to shower so baby went to find towel and came out of his parent's room with one. But his mom throw him one and said,"这个是她用过的，拿给她，用完了就丢掉不要拿去洗。" The tone she uses was really damn ugly. In English it is,"This towel she used before, give her use, use already just throw away don't need to wash." It is like saying I'm dirty or that she don't want to wash what I used.. Victor can't tolerate me being treated like that and shoot her mum saying what did I do to have this treatment, and that they wouldn't like being treated like this too. And something being said at the back but I can't remember because baby was like mumbling or something..
Actually I was planning to sleepover for the night but I was really having bad stomach upset so I intended to go home. And because I can't stayover his house for some reason.. so after awhile, his mum came in and said to bring me home don't stay here. And that Victor replied rudely saying that he knows what to do and don't bother him. The way that he talk to his mum is really bad and Idk whether his mum think that I taught his son to be like this to talk to her or that I'm a bad influence to him.. or even a bad girl to be with.
At times I feel that I really don't deserve this and that they can't judge me. Like my parents doesn't even treat me like that and they do. I talked to pk oppa about this yesterday and he advised me to stop going his house since they are treating me like that and there is no way to improve the relationship. I wish I can but sometimes I just wish to have someone to cuddle to hug to spend time with at home and not always going out. We don't see each other on regular basis, prolly max 3 times a week.. Really feel very wronged.. :'( although I know baby is always defending for me but the image that I have for his parents, there is nothing I can do. Feels so helpless at times..
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Actually I have something to blog about too. So today when I was playing dota with baby, I tend to be more vulgar. And Victor was saying that I was very rude and he doesn't like me being so vulgar like I'm a typical ah lian. I really dislike it when people try to correct my language because I'm born like that. No not so big but my family are like this. We communicate a lot of vulgarities. And I am also cutting down. I choose who I vulgar with. Like with TTC. They are retarded so vulgarities are needed. I guess I really need to cut down... though I'm really did because I know myself. Like telling me not to say vulgarities is telling me not to be myself. Just... weird....... k enough.
Tired of these word vomit. Just finish watching Strong Heart YG Family Special and the ending was so sad that I cried. :( Who can read until here deserve credit. Goodnight.