So the reason I am here is because of yeah, relationships. Not all of them lasted happily. Some of them just fill with quarrels here and there and either party not solving it properly. I'll just cut about what led to this but yes. Today, the first time I heard that wj voiced out that he wants a break. I don't know what to do and how to do but I know when a guy says that, don't hope for too much.
I don't know but I am beginning to blame myself because I think I treated wj really bad therefore he stops trying. I don't even know what to do to make things better I guess we're not cut out to be together. But at least we try and not saying give up so easily. I am tired crying every single night to sleep but I have to because I want us to stay and last long.
Was reading a blogger's blog and it was saying about her marriage and I started to picture us in. I know it's not gonna happen. But my heart just decided to ache at that moment. If only we try harder to make things better and not blaming and pushing fingers at one another. We didn't have to walk this path, not now and not in near future. It just hit him and he decided not to try anymore.
Now we're still together, but I don't know how much I can last but I'll make the best out of it. If a person wanna do something, there's no stopping right? Just like how he wanna smoke but no matter how hard I dislike I can't stop do I? I rather let him do what he want than losing him forever.
If friends are at a higher priority than your girl/boyfriends, then why have them at the first place? I hope couples out there treasure their other half because they are the ones that no matter what happens, still stick around and be with you when you're sad and happy. I'm so tired I just hope today ends quickly and tomorrow will be a new day and I'll try to make things better myself. I came to a point I don't even know what you're thinking because you chose not to show me. What am I supposed to do?
I love you b. I know you don't love me anymore but it hurts to just let you go without trying.
