Hello blog sorry I've not been coming back as I said. Because when one is happy, one doesn't tend to pen down the happy things. But when one is sad, blog is where he/she can only turn to. So here I am.. writing down my thoughts with tears.
First start is about sem 2.2. School has already started for the new sem for a month. And it is still manageable. Currently having double module block which stress hasn't really start kicking in but I will do my part. Now that Mich is no longer in TDS with me, I do feel lonely at times that when I see people that are bonded with their classmates, it makes me wonder why I can't call my classmates, friends. They are classmates to me. I see them in school, nothing else. Unlike people with semestral timetable, they have bonded class. Or well, at least a few that can be called friends.
But why is it just me having no one that can be called friends in the class? Yes I maybe happy everyday joking around with classmates but do you really know how I feel? I guess no one will unless you were once in my position. I thought the problem of friendship will end after I graduated from MJR. Why is it even following me to poly? Sometimes I really wonder is it me causing myself having no friends or I just can't clique with people? I try my best but I think the barrier is always there. That's why after school, I turn to the only person that I can rely most on, wj.
But even now, we're having problems too. Hate the fact that we have so many things to say to each other about how we feel, but we choose not to say in face to face, only waiting till we're online. Must we really go until the extent? Everything becomes online. Sometimes I feel like throwing away the laptop and smartphone just to get away from these gadgets that became bad tools.
I have so many things in mind, and I wish that I can tell you right in the face but I can't put them into words. So many things going on, I wish to say it out but I don't know how. School is taking away you from me. Which I can't blame and your classmates which are friends are taking you away from me too. Can't blame you either because you were never put in a spot of having no friends in class.
Idk what else to say. I'm too tired of crying. Bye.