There is so many things happening in my life and so many thoughts to say that I don't know where to start from so I'll just randomly start somewhere. Few days back I went out with cheng, and we were just talking there about what's been in our mind. Her talking about her studies and me about relationship. There is this one sentence that she said, I felt so thankful to her. "As your good friend, just know that whatever I do for you is for the best of you." I felt so touched at that point in time. :') I wish I can help her about her studies but I am at no wits because right now I'm struggling with mine too.
I don't wanna face school. There is so many things going on in my mind which I just feeling like shutting off everytime I think about school and it's killing me and ripping my soul inside out. I just wanna go somewhere where I can be forgotten so no one is there to bother about me not going school. I wanna sleep, forever. I have even come to a point to even thinking of dropping out to pursue my dream as air stewardess. Oh god why. I hope this shit doesn't cling on me long.
Talking about air stewardess. Everyone knows that if you're in a relationship and either party are working in the airline is tough for the relationship. And yes in the blink of an eye, I'm already single for a month. Of course who doesn't want the extra love someone gives? But the thought that if I really be an air stewardess, what will happen to my boyfriend? Which is why I'm hoping to be single as long as I can so I won't worry about all this. I shall make do with the love my friends give. :)
Just earlier today I was talking to cheng(again hahaha) about family and life. Sudden thought came into me. Everyone is growing up day by day and everyone have different lives leading on. It is scary to even think that we are all so busy that we lead our lives and stop meeting each other 3 years down the road. Everyone will be so busy, so busy that time doesn't allow us to have those usual night fooling around. I'm so afraid I have no one to turn to years down the road. Even by next year, that cheng moves out of Ubi, what am I gonna do? Her house is everything for us. From meeting point to refugee camp(or so I say) for us to stayover. What's gonna happen to all these? :'( Halppppppp. Sometime I really wish that I'd knew these bunch of lovely friends earlier. What have I been doing all these while? I don't want to lose them years down the road. Hais.
And.... the rain just poured. So nice for a cuddle right now. Shall do so with my bolster. :) I am so sorry for the wordy post but I guess these are the words that's keeping in me for real long. All the nice movies are coming out one after another and I'm going real broke soon. Save me. The Heat and White House Down in a week. Not forgetting Despicable Me 2 :( okay I shall shut up. So many words, I discount give one photo of me. Here it is
I have no recent photo of myself in my laptop so here is one. THROWBACK 2008 WHEN I WAS SECONDARY 2. Tadah. Someone really liked this photo. Heehee. Ok bai I love u all <3