Hiiiii~ Haven't been blogging for coming 2 weeks. Last week was the submission week for Design School students.. which is like the final assignment. So it was a busy week for everyone. Stayed over Mich's house to do work, having only 1 hour + of sleep, then went school and only slept at 11 when I reached home. And I was so tired I slept of my sofa with the dress I wore to school. Literally slept till 1+ the next afternoon. #replenishlossofsleep.
So this week is the mark of new block~ Retaking 3Dart and another new module: Digital Modelling which is using 3ds max. 3d art is alright since we know what we're supposed to submit and it's the class only for retakers so it's like the 7 of us?? Around there. Yeap. 3d max is okay... if you get the hang of it. But still can be quite frustrating at times -_- stupid stairs. Don't really do well with computer program so it's like... -_- and the final assignment for this is to create 3 seconds of animations of a retail space. Haven chose one. D: arghzzzz...
So today went to Tampines with Sebastian-san. Accompanied him to his dental appt because he don't wanna go alone, and then had a feast of duck rice yumz and then gift-hunting for a girl failed... and I bought 2 spag tops from new look, and some other shitz. l0l then went homez~
Have not seen baby since last last monday. right? I can't even remember... yeah i guess so. Miss him but time doesn't allow and other areas too... Ok nvm.
Anyway sudden urge of blogging again is because I saw Michie's blog post recently. I don't wanna talk to her about this is because there is no need to but i always feel inferior. People have secondary school friends that they are close to, right? And if you don't have is either you're a fucktard or people doesn't like you. But still you should have friends. Moreover, these friends stick around your life forever. Like Victor have his secondary school friends and they still talk and during CNY or birthdays they will come together. And Michie which is from St. Margs have her dear girls from there and hanging out even now and talking to them everyday.
But for me, I don't have anyone. The only person I can say that followed me through my secondary school life is Jarren. Having same class together since sec 1 and talking about everything in class.. but other than her, I really can't think of anyone else. Ya I have Cristal I have Pei Yi I have Jun Lin I have Kok Hua but they are one year older which is like not classmates. What I'm referring to are classmates that followed through. Sigh. I feel so damn pathetic at times. When I see other people have secondary school friends to chill with at night, supper, go out in a group...
What I was told is that because I had boyfriend with me through my secondary school like sec2-3 I had Victor, sec 4 I had another boyfriend but I don't think it really matter because they are also not the same class. Friends are never enough. Boyfriends come and go in a way when you guys break up and it is too damn awkward to contact etc. I missed my times of having close friends around me.
Even though now I have #TTC, but each of them still have their friends from sec school and I'm like the only one who doesn't have. Maybe I just don't know more people like they do since they socialize. But just upset like class ends at 3 but I just head home because I have no one to meet. Unlike Michie, all Sebas having his supper with classmates even from poly.
I can say there is no one else other than Mich that I hang out with after school in my class. Fucking pathetic I swear. Now that I talk about it I feel so pathetic I feel like digging a hole to hide myself or don't go out. Because who knows where I been as they don't know me? I is me, or is it just fate that I don't have close friends. I do feel glad that I have Chermaine, Iggy, Heni from DOC camp and all are nice people. I wish I have more friends. Maybe I'm too friendly??? Maybe it is really me??? K nvm.
What am I with friends? And what am I without friends? Nothing. Just a human you see on the street that waves and say hi and bye.
Goodnight.