Hallo. Went over princess' house to do work today. Well we didn't, gotta go school and do tomorrow. Was using my laptop, suddenly she came over and cry in my face. Got freaked out, close my laptop and put it aside, hugged her AND SAY,"AN ZHUA?" No la. I didn't lol. I asked what happened. Sigh. Relationship problem. Enough of the shit already. She got her own problems she wanna ask about mine. Tell me to strive for it. I mean I did not like I never. And I got nothing in return. She said something like I gotten used to him around means I liked him already so I should go for it. I only say,"Just let it be okay. I don't wanna try."
Perhaps the past experience of trying really make me not putting in any effort. But I am seriously very tired of being the one that always try. Sick of it. At times like these I feel like shutting myself in an enclosed room and just cry. Hiding away from reality once in awhile is not a bad idea.
"The people who want to stay in your life will always find a way." I did, but in no return. Maybe just not fated to be. Not even as friends?
Life is shitty when the holidays start. Staying at home, going out awhile, staying at home. No proper dates. I miss the past when I can go out and have fun in the midnight. Like going to lan or pool or sing k. Now everyone is gone. And Christmas is coming, the best thing is I don't even have a plan of what to do and to do celebrate it. Someone, give me a date. Kthxbye.